i dont know where to start.

I havent really wrote anything in awhile

my mind has literally been in a million different places.

between work, and moving and finding more work and a new relationship and seeing my best friend daily and not sleeping enough everything has been hectic

but im starting to find my roots and my energy has balanced out so im here again.

hi

how have you been?

i moved to Calgary a week ago yesterday. I turned 29 on friday ooph.

i started schooling Monday to become a reiki master and energy healer. massage therapist and reflexologist will follow suit soon.

ever since i was little i was a nurturer

my mom always bought me baby dolls because i wanted to take care of something.

and all my life Ive mistaken that need to nurture for my want of a child a family that love.

and it isnt that all

Ive recently discovered that my need to nurture has come from a place of wanting to heal.

I don't want people to hurt.

to suffer

I want to help people

i always felt so out of sync with life when i was being hateful and hurtful and lately ive felt sooo calm, overwhelmed with the energy work ive been experiencing but calm.

my family wouldn't understand this

its all about medicine with them

go to the doctors, get a prescription, over medicate, don't feel, dont think, don't hurt.

thats the last thing  your spirit needs

you need to feel pain you need to grow through it

specially when it comes to depression or loss of a loved one.

you have to feel all that.

when chelone came out to see me in Banff he had a seizure. and he asked me to hold his toes... little did he know that, holding his toes is a reflexology method it helps the flow of positive energy from your root chakra to your crown chakra... i know he knew it helped his chi but its so much more.

i am a firm believer in physics I went to catholic schools my whole life and kind of poopoo'd the ideas of god healing.. i knew the world was too vast and brilliant to be created in 3 days.

i cant imagine the stars being born from anything but science

when chelone died, and when my mom died i struggled with the fact that they were such dynamic people that how can two people with such dynamic energy just cease to exist when I was taught through physics that energy cannot be created nor destroyed that's basic knowledge

this adventure through energy healing makes total sense to me through a scientific view.

i haven't been more content with my life and my journey until now

i know who I am

what my purpose is

and im content in it

i cant wait to continue to grow through it and eventually help people