because im still in love with you - on this harvest moon

the best kind of nights

is watching someone you love sleep while your wrapped in a blanket next to them with neil youngs "harvest moon" playing and giant cup of tea

i swear the little things are the best

black out nights are fun but Id much rather wake up the next morning and not have to check my phone/fb/ig/twitter to make sure i didn't do anything stupid.

I do miss my crazy whistler nights

snowboarding partying hooking up with whoever suited me that night

but naw early nights with K are the best

makes me wish I hadn't started this whole adventure off the way I did

im sick of impulsivity and rushing head strong into everything

I want to settle

YEP I SAID IT

girl wants to settle

want a man

want a family

want a dog

I want that.

I want that stability Im sick of gnarly dudes

I am sooo sick of pointless relationships

seeing my best friend plan her marriage has me wanting and ready for that

I need to get over chelones death

and give someone else a chance

I want to fall recklessly in love and not be worried about him leaving, dying, cheating.
I want to support someone and hold someone down
and I want that returned you know
blegh don't know why im feeling all this right now
probably should just sleep aha