tattoos.

I demand your strength,

I will not let you be less!

YOU ARE ALWAYS MORE..

 

ive been looking at tattoos lately

mainly a memorial one for my mom

she hated tattoos aha like despised them

and yet here I am looking to immortalize her forever in a form of art that she hated

I love it aha

my mom called me her "little bitch" out of love it was her nickname for me because I had super firey temper and I was a lippy kid

so that would completely be the "little bitch" thing to do.

shes probably hating the idea and standing behind me as I type this cursing my future aha

but whatever

"hi madre"

anyways ive been thinking of designs.

I wanted something in her handwriting, she always wrote me notes and really awesome meaningful emails and birthday cards and one thing she always told me was "i will not let you be a puddle" as in I will not let you sit and wallow in your grief, she reminded me that puddles were made to be splashed in and not bathed in.

then I was also thinking of getting her birthday in Ukrainian on the back of my neck

or the "Diana" constellation on my ribs. her name was diane and she was a warrior I tell yah aha

or personalize a mandala as my mom was into that spiritual shit in the end

I don't know

tattoos are funny

I never wanted them and now that I have a few small ones I want more.

nothing crazy and obviously easily hidden because despite my fuck you attitude im still pretty conservative

I just know I want one.

I miss her somedays

well everyday